Another article about lead climbing and fear with some good ideas on how to deal with it. Especially in the comments section.
“I want to be bold. I want to place a cam and climb away without fear. But that’s not me. I shake and my feet search for purchase. I down climb a move and let go. My last cam was below my feet, but the fall is clean. I’m disappointed. I couldn’t push through. I still had energy in my arms but not enough in my head. I gave up.”